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Pat Jones - North Carolina
Just wanted to let you
know how very much I look forward to these daily devotions. It
is such a blessing to me. I work for a non-profit organization
that provides counseling to bereaved parents and children
dealing with loss of any kind. I lost a child 6 years ago and
was helped here and now I am able to work here and it is such
a blessing to me. But the words of encouragement I read daily
from this site are wonderful and I just wanted to let you
know. Thank you and your are very much appreciated.
Nina Fortenberry -Georgia
I would like everyone to know that I know God and I love him.
I pray everyday that he helps me and works thru me. I was in a
situation about two years ago that I should not have been in
and I just about died. My small intestines ruptured. While I
was in the hospital for over a week I prayed to God please
help me thru this so I can be there for my son and I will not
go back to the problem I was in. I have a co-worker that was
also sent to me to show me the way to GOD. He was calling for
me but I did not know how to get to him. I still have a lot to
learn but I am wide open and waiting to learn. I thank god for
everything in my life good or bad because there is always a
lesson to learn from it. And he wants me to learn. Please
don't anyone out there turn your back on GOD. He really does
love everyone.
Deborah Thompson- West Point
Indiana
I just wanted to send a note, to tell you how much I look
forward to this e-mail everyday. I love God Today! Your
messages are moving and what I need to hear. The format is
beautiful also. You can be sure I will be telling my friends
about this. God Bless you and what you do.
Vicky -Pennsylvania
My name is Vicki, born in Pennsylvania in September, 1968. In
my short life I had endured quite a bit of abuse; I had been
raped by a male acquaintance of my mother's at age 5, then
verbally, physically and sexually abused by my older brother
from ages 7 to 17, and raped twice by an uncle at age 19.As a
result of the sexual abuse and violence that occurred, it led
me into a path of destructive behavior and a life of utter
confusion and feelings of inadequacy. I firmly believe that
due to the abuse and sexual violence endured, it resulted in
me dealing with many problems and psychiatric issues. From an
early age I struggled with feelings of inadequacy, low
self-esteem, anger and hatred toward men. As a child I was in
therapy, a bed-wetter, was attracted to girls, had strong
desires to be a boy and often dressed as a boy. As I entered
my teen years, which were very difficult, I endured a sexual
identity crisis, dealt with self-destructive behavior,
developed anorexia and bulimia, was an alcoholic, dabbled in
drugs, was in and out of therapy and entered the Marines. By
early adulthood I continued therapy, was causing
self-inflicted injuries on my body as a way of coping, in and
out of Eating Disorder Units and psychiatric hospitals, dealt
with suicidal tendencies, bouts with numerous suicide
attempts, was diagnosed with a chemical imbalance, clinical
depression and Borderline Personality Disorder (BDP). By age
25 I had self-injured my body by cutting and burning (1, 5"
scar & 1, 4" scar from 3rd degree burns & over 250 scars from
cutting). I had been involved in various relationships
(dysfunctional, abusive, one night stands), led a homosexual
lifestyle, was in a gang, had an abortion, claimed bankruptcy
due to high medical bills, was on psychotherapeutic medication
(17 pills daily), had battled with mental illness and was in
and out of psychiatric hospitals. As I approached 27, I was
dependent on psychotherapeutic medications, totally
exasperated and felt as though I was just existing and taking
up space. I was at a point in my life that although I doubted
anything could be better, I was looking for my life to change.
Although I thought I had tried everything possible to get
better, somehow I was still open for help. It seemed that
whatever I tried that it was only good for a few hours, a day,
sometimes if I got "lucky" it lasted a couple days. I was not
brought up around church or anything godly. Although I doubted
a lot of things about God, one Sunday in March of 1995 I was
invited to church and reluctantly went. It was my first time
going to a church in over 15 years, and this was no church
like I had ever been to. From the moment I stepped through the
doors, I sensed something different. When I walked into that
church in New Jersey I remember sensing such love and peace.
(I honestly thought it would be over once I left). I wasn’t
quite sure what my beliefs were, mainly Agnostic, as I spent
most of my life blaming God or questioning Him why all this
happened to me. I was at a point of my life where I was not
ready to be let down again. All I knew was that when I walked
into that church, I felt great and didn’t remember feeling so
much peace like that before. And I knew it was real. No
medication made me feel this alert and alive, I knew it just
had to be real. I wanted so much to be normal but had no clue
how to do it, as everything else I tried proved a failure.
After going to that church I asked God to make himself real to
me. Within days I noticed that I was more peaceful, able to
think clearly and the negative desires I had were not so
strong. Even though to an outsider that would seem so small of
a change, however, for me it was a big thing just to see a
change, at that moment I knew that God was real! A few weeks
later, I bought a Bible and it opened right up to the book of
Mark, and I began reading in chapter 5. As I read, I saw that
a guy who had cut himself day and night and appeared to have
mental illness; he was healed by Jesus. I became very agitated
with God and threw the Bible to the floor. I just didn’t
understand why I wasn’t well; if he had healed this guy so
long ago. I began to yell at God: “!@#* you God, if you are
real, then why the hell can’t you help me? Why can’t you do
for me what you did years ago for that guy? I’m tired so tired
of this !@#*, and tired of living this way. Don’t you
understand that I’m tired of crying all night long, cutting
and drinking because I cannot cope? Life isn’t supposed to be
this way. I don’t want mental illness. Please help me.” I do
realize now that swearing to God may not have been the best
thing, but at that time I wasn’t accustomed to talking with
Him and tried my best to be nice. After saying this, I pleaded
with God, I truly petitioned him for his help. I figured my
last resort was this God who I wasn’t even so sure about. I
put all my doubts aside and immediately I began to pray to
God, actually I challenged him that I wanted answers and that
I would give him 3 weeks to “prove himself” to me. Even though
I wasn’t sure if I believed in God, I thought it would be a
good idea if I at least put my efforts into it. I wanted my
life to change and was looking for a difference. I figured
that I had done everything possible that I guess I could at
least give God a chance. It seemed as if nothing else had
worked, but I have never thought of including God because I
mainly blamed God, part of me thought that what happened to me
was His fault. Additionally, part of me wasn’t convinced that
he even existed. I wasn’t sure what I believed in, not even
certain about God. Ever since I "challenged" God, my life
turned around completely and has never been the same! I
“officially” accepted Jesus into my life in April, 1995 during
a church meeting. What happened over the next 1 1/2 years was
absolutely breathtaking! With the love and mercy of God I
learned to cope with the past and look forward to the future;
there is hope and there is a better way of life. I learned
that I don’t have to live my future based on my past. I am not
sure why all that happened to me, but I do know that what was
meant for bad is now being turned around for good. I have
forgiven all the people that have hurt and abused me. And, I
have completely healed, recovered and overcome in every area!
I was married to a wonderful Christian man in April, 1999. My
life has taken a 360 degree turn and amazed at what God does!
It is my hope that every person will come to the realization
that they can overcome anything in their life, as nothing is
hopeless! Whatever a person has gone through or may be facing
right now, they can get through it just like I did and lead a
normal healthy life as God intended for them! I know God will
heal anyone, anytime of anything. God will heal your mind and
body, He will change you; He is just a prayer away. Vicki
www.endallthepain.com
Tonya- Ohio
I just want to thank the Lord for all that he has done for me.
I know he has touched my daughter and I know in his own time
she will be completely healed.
Agim- Brooklyn New York
I have been a Christian from 1991 when the political Albania
changed the face and in Albania came in power a democratic
state. I read every day this "Daily Devotion" in GOD TODAY
and, with God's word that I find in this web, I created an
Albanian List for my people, called "BESIMTARI" (GODLINESS.)
Thank GOD, Thank You, God Bless America.
Lorie Gilliland-Tulsa, OK
I want to thank you for your Daily Devotion. I was going
through a divorce when I found your site on the internet. My
husband had left me for another women. I was devastated.
Through this hard time your Daily Devotion brought hope to a
no hope situation, and light through the darkest hour. Thank
You so much for continuing to send them each day to brighten
my life and to supply me with the word of God. You did not
realize it but you helped me through a touch time in my life
and brought hope and serenity to my soul. God bless you all.
And again Thank You from my heart.
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